I feel this thing in my chest. It's big and heavy and kind of makes it hard to breath. I want to cry it out but I can't.
This morning I read some news that made me sad. It was one of those moments when I had to close my eyes and sigh deeply. Then tonight, I read some more news that...well, at first it left me feeling completely shocked and then it felt like a broken heart and now it's hard to breathe.
I feel so sad. I feel like we're settling too much. We're settling for less than what God wants for us because it's hard to follow God completely. But if we keep settling than what's left: a Gospel that's not really good news, a God who's tame. I don't want to settle. I know I may look or feel foolish going for it or it may be hard and I may want to give up but I don't want to settle.
God help me to fight hard for you. I want to be like you. Your forgiveness knows no limit. Your patience infinite. Thank you for treating us better than we treat you or treat each other. Please teach us. Teach me.
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tonight we'll be singing freedom songs and i will think of you as wee worship that you may be free from this heaviness and free from the urge to settle into american christianity as opposed to counter cultural, consuming, and courageous love of the LORD. :)
I have a song that will soon be released and the main line is this. Mend and keep on living, knowing there's a purpose for all your pain.
I hope this finds you well friend.
Peace.
Thank you, Ethan.
It's really sad to see it around me, but it's really scary to know how easy it is to give into the easier way. And I know how capable I am of being super lazy. That's why in these moments of clarity, I try to train myself and hope that it sticks.
I'm really glad you're at BRV.
I'm glad i'm at BRV. and I'm glad you are as well. You're just great. Tim too, you guys are some of my faves.
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