07 June 2010
please pray for me
I'm so nervous and feeling so insecure. I want to time travel to tomorrow night at 10pm when I will be sitting on my couch with everything behind me. I'm still not prepared. I am scared of letting down everyone who believes in me. I'm going to try to sleep now and give my brain a rest. But I'm planning on waking up super early to work on it some more before work. I don't know if anyone actually reads this, but if you do and if you pray, would you please pray for me?
05 June 2010
Tuesday
So, I have this talk on Tuesday night. I keep calling it a talk so as to not freak myself out but really, it's a sermon. 20-25 minutes. On the stage. In the sanctuary. With a microphone lapel and a PowerPoint clicker. I'm a little nervous now, but I expect to be a total mess on Tuesday including nausea, upset stomach, and diarrhea. Unfortunately, that's not an exaggeration.
The youth interns have asked to me to speak on marriage as part of their "Getting Love Right" series. It's something I'm super passionate about. Not just because I think Timmy is the best but because I think God is the best and I'm continually amazed at the institution of marriage.
But I am overwhelmed. I have this one opportunity, 20 minutes, in hopes that it will leave a mark on these kids and lead them down the path to a God-honoring marriage. So much to say but what to say. I believe God is guiding me but I hope that I am hearing him. I told Timmy today that what I really need is just to relax and be myself. The truth is that I respect marriage. If I don't get hung up on details but just speak on the truth of the holiness of marriage, I'll be okay. It's the structure that I'm freaking out about. Hence, my insistence to keep referring to it as a talk instead of a sermon.
And in related new....
Earlier this week, Al and Tipper Gore announced their separation after 40 years of marriage. Yesterday morning, Mark-Paul Gosselaar and Lisa Anne Russell announced their separation after 14 years of marriage. Today, Cesar and Illusion Milan announced their separation after 19 years of marriage. I feel more aware of the attack on marriages. I feel more convicted that someone needs to stand for them. I feel like I need to help those teenagers see that this may be normal but it's not right. Life happens. We're broken and we live in a broken world. But please don't settle for the brokenness. Fight for what God always intended.
The youth interns have asked to me to speak on marriage as part of their "Getting Love Right" series. It's something I'm super passionate about. Not just because I think Timmy is the best but because I think God is the best and I'm continually amazed at the institution of marriage.
But I am overwhelmed. I have this one opportunity, 20 minutes, in hopes that it will leave a mark on these kids and lead them down the path to a God-honoring marriage. So much to say but what to say. I believe God is guiding me but I hope that I am hearing him. I told Timmy today that what I really need is just to relax and be myself. The truth is that I respect marriage. If I don't get hung up on details but just speak on the truth of the holiness of marriage, I'll be okay. It's the structure that I'm freaking out about. Hence, my insistence to keep referring to it as a talk instead of a sermon.
And in related new....
Earlier this week, Al and Tipper Gore announced their separation after 40 years of marriage. Yesterday morning, Mark-Paul Gosselaar and Lisa Anne Russell announced their separation after 14 years of marriage. Today, Cesar and Illusion Milan announced their separation after 19 years of marriage. I feel more aware of the attack on marriages. I feel more convicted that someone needs to stand for them. I feel like I need to help those teenagers see that this may be normal but it's not right. Life happens. We're broken and we live in a broken world. But please don't settle for the brokenness. Fight for what God always intended.
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