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The firm surprised me with a shower/good bye party this afternoon. I've been wondering when they would do it since I only have four more days left, but it still managed to be a surprise - well, somewhat. They sent me on an emergency run to the bank, but when I came back, the entire billing department was gone. So they so desperately needed this money that they had me stop the job I was working on and now they are gone. In fact, everyone was gone. Then while I still have my coat on, my purse in hand, and two envelopes of petty cash, Steven hurries by and asks "Can you deliver this fax to Scott in conference A? He's in a meeting and he needs it right away." "Um okay" I say, and I walk to conference with a smile on my face "This is it. They are so funny." All the shades are drawn in the conference room and I knock. I hear a male voice that wasn't Scott's say "come in." And there they were. Everyone yelled surprise and applauded. There were decorations and lots of food and presents.

It was a good time. Good people. Good food. Mmmm, tomato pie from Corropolese. Good presents. This is a good place. It's definitely my time to leave, but it's a been quite the adventure the last 3 1/2 years. Not to sound cheesy, but this firm changed my life - of course, I mean the people, but this firm is made of the people. I'm very grateful for my time with them, but I am also looking forward to this new stage in my life.

People keep asking Steven if he will miss me when I leave. He tells them no. He equates it to a sick person dying a slow and painful death. You aren't sad when they finally die. You're happy that their suffering is done. More than anyone else, Steven knows all feelings about my time at the firm - the good, the bad, and the ugly. And also more than anyone else in this firm, he knows how much I have longed to find love and be married. And he knows how much it has pained me not to be married already to Timmy. Steven isn't going to be sad when I leave because he knows how happy I will be. Not to say he won't miss my being around and hearing all my craziness. And I am definitely going to miss talking to Steven everyday. And Kia. And Liz. And Maggie. They are all wonderful. So glad they will be at the wedding to share our day.