I'm sitting on the couch in the living room with my laptop. I went to bed at 11:30pm. At 12:30, I gave up trying to fall asleep and left bed. It's now 1:30am and Timmy just came out of the room. He noticed I wasn't in bed and wanted to check up on me. "I'm okay. I just can't sleep." "Okay, just want to make sure you aren't laying on the bathroom floor. I love you." He turns around and heads back to bed.
That little exchange warms my heart. I spent years not being able to sleep and no one knew. I spent years crying myself to sleep and no one really knew. I'd stay up wondering if I would always be alone, if anyone would ever really care. He cares. There is someone in my life, who notices when I can't sleep. It's my favorite part of being married. There is someone with whom to share my life.
There's a movie with a quotation that I just love. It's Shall We Dance: Susan Sarandon, Richard Gere, Jennifer Lopez. Not much to the movie, but there are a few scenes that I love. In one scene, someone asks Susan's character, "why do people get married?" She replied:
we need a witness to our lives. There’s a billion people on the planet, I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness’
Timmy notices when I can't sleep. I love that about him.
3 comments:
that was so sweet, especially as i sit awake at 3:18, alas, jay doesn't wake in the middle of the night, but i definitely understand what you're saying...
awww... =) it sounds like he'll be wonderful when you have babies too!
this post really was so sweet :) you are blessed to have that kind of husband!
i absolutely love that part of shall we dance. i'm sure i cried the first time i heard it - and it has stayed in my mind as criteria for the kind of marriage i want to have someday. God knew what he was doing when he said "it is not good for man to be alone" - and then fixed it! ha ha :)
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